I'm having an interesting struggle with my self image. I've got a wee bit of fat on my belly, and my sides bulge ever so slightly. Yes, ridicule my miniscule plumpening if you will, but this is new. I've never softly bulged about the belly before. Well, not since i can remember. My self image as an adolescent was poor, to say the least, and a big part of my growing has been an increasing happiness with my physical self, increasingly stronger, more agile, more able, more confident, feeling sexier and more self assured. And now this. Yes, my city edge lifestyle has left me more car bound, yes my tantra practice is less physically rigorous than my martial arts, yes i've been eating too much sugar. It's easy to be fine with body issues when you don't have to worry about them. I mean, i'm even fairly comfortable these days with the 'hole' in my chest. My reaction is perhaps more about the state of my fitness than about the actual body stuff, but i sit here feeling plump, bulgy, unfit. It's quite weird. Anyway, a fine motivation for getting back into more physical activity, and good to know that i'm quite attached to my body image - an interesting avenue to explore.
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