Family Love

Curious watching those you love slowly leaving, holding an open heart and knowing that my saddness will be deep. Holding space while watching television, being one of the kids and one of the adults both at once. I wonder how long it will take before some part of my brain stops wondering when they're going to get home.

I'll miss Katherine's shy excitement about life, Tim's enthusiasm for sharing his world of computer games, comics, superheros and zombies, and Erin's love, wheelbarrowing, trampolines and love of attention.

And Stephen and Leanne, who have taught me how powerful love can be, and how love can be so deeply transformative, holding each other to the alchemical flame of transformation. The heart, crucible of transformation.

So much to miss, but so much to hold in my heart, keeping it glowing. I'll miss them, but i'll always feel so close to them.